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August 22, 2003
well, now I know
what I need to do. And that helps me get closer to removing myself emotionally from my situation. I have been told, in no uncertain terms, how things are shaking out. So finally, I have some clarity. Now I can put on the hard shell, give up hope that it will work out rationally and create the new strategy. It's when I have hope that I get hurt. Now I can put that aside and place that hope in a new place.
I don't do well with uncertainty. I like to have the plan, like to understand the lay of the land. If it's bad news, fine--at least I know and can figure out how to get the best out of the situation. And that's where I am now.
What was the most loved job I have ever had is now a memory--but my portfolio is full and I learned a lot from very talented people. I know what I'm going to do and now I just need luck and to be in the right place at the right time.
I feel better now. Because my sadness is shifting toward pity. My anger toward apathy. If my hard work isn't going to be appreciated then I will find someone else who will.
Posted by crystallyn at August 22, 2003 11:22 AM
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This post reminds me of a note pad I had that read, "I feel much better now that I gave up hope." I used to think that it was kind of funny in a pathetic sort of way. Reading your blog post sort of puts it in a different perspective.
Here's to a brighter future somewhere out there!
PS - I was lucky enough to pick up a few shares of your blog on blogshares.
Posted by: Michael at August 22, 2003 12:22 PM
I know that feeling.
I'm sorry
Posted by: Shanna at August 22, 2003 12:55 PM